school's starting..... not soon enough

i so excited that im going to start school. i can't wait, i've been waiting 7 months. my exceptance letter came on Saturday, now all i have to do is go down to make the payments. i'm ready to make new friends, and dive right into school work. though i'll have to put my social life on hold most of the days.... no more shopping, clubbing..etc. i want a laptop too. DELL- PINK.

And i want to repaint my room, and put up my pictures... i think its time to be a pink princess. haha

yesterday was merv's commissioning parade. it was so interesting. he was the contingent thingy...haha. holding the sword and all. and his brother and i made a bet (cause he insisted the second infantry contingent was him), anyway i lost the bet, and lost my money. :( lol
all in all, it was fun.

then we went for a lil' alcohol/ game night at D's....... if only we got there earlier the rest would have been more alive..... pansies!!!

the truth about girls

Said about girls:
1. when a girl says there's nothing wrong, there's always something wrong
2. when a girl says 'we're just friends', means they really are just friends
3. not all girls like being controlled. we like freedom
4. girls need space, just like guys do
5. don't do things we hate, we'll end up hating you
6. we get pissed off easily, its just a girl thing
7. girls get jealous, just has quick as guys do
8. don't lie/ hide things from us, it just makes us mad and turn to friends
9. never question a girls relationship with her friends(male), she knows her status
10. if you love us, trust us
11. make a point to listen to our opinions
12. if she asks for your friends, means she likes them
13. we hate having to ask 'what's wrong' and not get any answers. confine in us, it makes us feel like you care
14. choose your words wisely, girls are touchy if you sound rude. we'll just get pissed off
15. we never lie about our feelings
16. girls lose interest in guys if they get boring; they do the same thing, they do nothing at all....etc
17. don't make a girl jealous, you'll regret it
18. if she wants to spend time with her friends alone, let her. because when your around your her first priority

options...........

1. its my life
2. my choices
3. my mistakes to make, experiences to gain
4. you don't know me, im not you
5. your trying to help, but know nothing about everything

sometimes i feel death would solve everything....
but the one i'd hurt the most doesn't deserve it.......
fucked up entry, fucked feelings, fucking pissed off!!!!!

leave me the hell alone!

Batam trip

I went for a short holiday with merv and his friends, like last last week. It was short but relaxing. getting away from everyone here, and just spending some time with him. Shopping wasn't that great, but we ate quite a bit. Damn! i was constantly thinking of running the whole time i ate. haha. i think i've now developed a fear of getting fat. oh well, we watch Narnia: Prince Caspian there. and yes i know, you go overseas but you watch a movie... hey it was cheap, and well i was dying to see it. But it was shit ass cold in there!! and i was without a jacket. plus there was a technical error halfway through the movie. and Indonesians don't stick around till the end of the show, a handful were leaving at the most exciting parts....weird! it was funny when they fell down the steps trying to leave in the pitch dark theater. hah! we went bowling too... used stupid names on the board like batman, superman, britney, slut. lol! and as if it wasn't enough, im going away again.! yay. Thailand.....shopping shopping shopping..... i already know what im going to buy.. hehe. but its a weekend away from him, and i'll miss him. i know i'll but him something. hehe...





why do i feel like he is a little distant from me, are you sure there isn't anything wrong m love?