Obession!

Absence is said to make the heart grow fonder:

I won't lie, that much is true.
I felt its work, when we were only half way through.
Its a year later now, and everything has changed.
What she said then, has started to take its phase.
No more opening of bottle caps, or surprises,
It is now practicality over fantasy.

Back at training. Like finally! i know. Its been 3 months. I feel so stiff, i can't do what i used to. Kinda depressing actually, cause i've always been seen as the gymnast of the team.....sigh. Oh well, time to shape up! lol.
Every time i decide to go for a run, its rains. So i'm not taking any chances i'm going to the gym! I so need to lose weight, personally i dont think i'm fat. I am big - build, my sister is small - built, but everyone always notices her. "wow, andrea you lost weight", they never notice me.... See all these people are going to land me in hospital one day; eating disorder they'd say. lol. Im tired of people calling me fat, even if they are joking. Its a total a spirit crusher- i think i might need that spirit stick now justin. haha.
Oh well, im kinda getting more depressed typing about it. So im going to work out my issues with the treadmill. lol. Plus! i had macs twice this week........ can you say pushing it?
Back to my diet plan i guess....its hilarious. I was eating less because i wasn't training, now that i am training i eat properly but im not losing any weight!!!!!!!! ok ok i know im obessed with my weight!